A rap song I wrote

I am a girl very manly

You are a boy very girly.

My parents divorce when I was little

My mum got beat up by landlord

I was only a little girl

I want myself to be a strong man

To beat that landlord to protect my mum

I dress like a man n act like a man when I was high school

Until college met my first and my ex husband

He turns me into a woman

Then New York turns me into a sexy woman.. A “me” that suppressed for a long time

I am sexy and hot, but I am not a slut.

Judgment comes when you too show off on dancing

I wasn't easy

I break my ankle

Break my leg

Glasses stick into my feet

My bf dumps me

I keep dancing

I born out from the tough

People see me as an Asian

But I know myself

I told people I got a black soul

I wasn't kidding

People don't believe it

Because they never been through what I been through

But I know

I born as most of black had been through.

I am tough

And I am proud of myself

I accept who I am

I like rap song

And I do rap song

I am a lot stronger than you see I am

My parents are Christian

Ill be there

Not yet

But I know I will be there

People get scare when they see me rap

So I hide it

Believe in yourself man

We can’t choose what we been through

But we can choose how to face it

When I was in oz

The only thing I told myself is

My mum can’t speak English

I can’t die in here and let her bring my body back Taiwan

No matter how pain it is

No matter how much I want to end it

I need to be alive for her

No matter what

I can’t let her carry my body in this fucking lonely country that she can’t even understand a fucking single word

I made the plan to kill him

But my parents walk me through this

He got what he deserve

In law

I go boxing

To release my anger

I am still doing boxing

I don't know how long it’s gonna take

But

As my counselor in oz told me

I can take as much time as I need

This is my fucking life

And I take it

I should totally use what I been through to write a rap song

Here it is.

Song I modified for a gay met in the club

My life is brilliant , my life is brilliant , my love is pure, I touch an angel, of that I'm sure, he dance with me on the stage, he was with another man, but I won't lose no sleep on that, cause I've got a plan, you r attractive , u r attractive , u r attractive , it's true, I saw your face in a crowded place, and I don't know what to do, cause I'll never be with you , yes he caught my eyes, as we walked on by, he could see from my face that I was flying high, and I don't think I'll see him again, but we shared a moment that will last till the end. You r beautiful , u r beautiful , u r beautiful it's true , I saw ur face in a crowed place, and I don't know what to do, cause I'll never be with u... U r hot , u r hot, u r hot it's true , there must be an angel with beautiful muscle on his body. When he thought up that I should be with u... But it's time to face the truth , I'll never be with u...

Mogwai - Take Me Somewhere Nice

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=luM6oeCM7Yw
thank you Dayna.
This song makes me feel peace...

You don't have to

You don't have to be wealthy for people to love you

You don't have to be smart for people to love you

You don't have to be handsome or pretty for people to love you 

All you need to do is just be yourself 

comedy movies like pitch perfect

She's the Man  -2006-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D4OhwrMidSU   check
John Tucker Must Die   -2006-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hvn8RCxGauQ
Easy A   -2010-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KNbPnqyvItk   check
10 Things I Hate About You  -2009-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AWmjzCZr0Jw
A Walk to Remember  -2013-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i72wRvPw_ik
Wild Child  -2011- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HJKQMHX5nrI  wannawatch
17 Again  -2011- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2wn6pAIRjjY    check
She's All That  -2013-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kI9fYsgduGE
Aquamarine   -2008-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CIavKkromVc
Geek Charming   -2012-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BdPD1ylPwms
Clueless   -2012-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RS0KyTZ3Ie4
Angus, Thongs, and Perfect Snogging  -2008-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XYuKxAspH1A
Keith   -2010-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fi4P5ksvBLo
New York Minute  -2007-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fk7IHMhW9b4
It's a Boy Girl Thing  -2012-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6wnYAoqVBnI
Sydney White   -2012-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N-Hua-wJzVc
The Princess Diaries  -2012-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2CkcwPi20ms  wannawatch
Sorority Wars   -2011-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=riKGhHnbaUI
A Cinderella Story  -2004-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fkymvwd02xQ
The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants  -2009-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKcIG8D8FOY
Raise Your Voice  -2008-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UwqbWngXdVc
Bend It Like Beckham   -2008-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XsmbObwStSQ
Bring It On series   -2000-2006-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IP6mF9YffvQ
Freaky Friday   -2006-   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UShtvCen6So
Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist   -2008-   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YNzzCN4dVFA
Teen Spirit   -2012-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A-IOXbvU18A  check
The Jerk Theory   -2008-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VrnezHLLHdU   wannawatch
The First Time   -2012-   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NnVJm2NwJJ8
Picture This  -2008-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZuRy_4aHkL8
Legally Blonde   -2001-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E8I-Qzmbqnc
Sleepover   -2007-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jt7QIaGnm28
Stick It  -2006-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lDExqBXKw4k
True Confessions of a Hollywood Starlet   -2011-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UJ_PY8zX1fo
Bandslam  -2009-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FEyQNUesvCo
Drive Me Crazy  -1999-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uDRZ1Ej_oCg
Juno  -2007-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K0SKf0K3bxg   check
The Hot Chick  -2002-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6z5zbY-0QCA     check
The Last Song  -2009-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WwLmQqRanvM
LOL  -2012-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mhpGs2-26pg    wannawatch
Monte Carlo  -2011-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rxm_bVVhbr8    wannawatch
From Prada to Nada  -2010-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LvY6WPO5DMc
The Clique  -2008-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CYk80K4FzkM
So Undercover   -2012-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fUNXNLyr7tU   wanna watch
Chalet Girl -2011-  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=87Ocy8J0RYM



Action Movies:
1. Spider Man and sequel 2. Unstoppable 3. The Taking of Pelham 123 4. Scott Pilgrim vs. The World 5. Turbulence (kind of funny too) 6. 127 Hours 7. Rush Hour 8. The Tourist 9. Inception 10. Salt 11. The Italian Job

Crime/Mafia Movies:
1. Reservoir Dogs 2. The Lovely Bones (it got bad reviews but I thought it was pretty good) 3. Casino 4. Goodfellas 5. Ocean’s 11

Different/Independent/Quirky Movies:
1. Rushmore 2. The Darjeeling Limited 3. Delirious 4. Trees Lounge 5. Igby Goes Down 6. Ghost World
7. Little Miss Sunshine 8. According to Greta 9. Napoleon Dynamite 10. Paris, Je T'aime 11. Camille
12. Saint John of Las Vegas 13. Bottle Rocket 14. The Joneses 15. The Great Buck Howard 16. Heathers
17. The Marc Pease Experience 18. Youth in Revolt 19. Home Fries

Comedy/Goofy/Fun Movies:

1. The Brady Bunch Movie
2. A Very Brady Sequel
3. The Wedding Singer
4. Airheads
5. Big Daddy
6. Happy Gilmore
7. My Cousin Vinny
8. Heavy Weights
9. Good Burger
10. Ferris Bueller's Day Off
11. Spice World (for Spice Girl fans from 1990s/2000s)
12. Mr. Deeds
13. Pineapple Express
14. Vegas Vacation
15. The Waterboy
16. Meet The Parents
17. Knocked Up
18. Role Models
19. National Lampoons Vacation
20. National Lampoons European Vacation
21. National Lampoons Christmas Vacation
22. Vegas Vacation
23. Home Alone
24. Home Alone 2
25. Jingle All The Way
26. Animal House
27. All About Steve (It got terrible reviews but I enjoyed it)
28. Dumb and Dumber
29. Malibu’s Most Wanted
30. Lottery Ticket (just ok, not great)

Family Movie/Classics:

1. Pollyanna
2. Richie Rich
3. Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs
4. The Trouble With Angels
5. Back To The Future
6. Honey, I Shrunk the Kids
7. A Little Princess
8. My Dog Skip
9. How To Train Your Dragon
10. Fantastic Mr. Fox
11. Toy Story series
12. Coraline
13. Hey Arnold! The Movie
14. Jimmy Neutron

Drama:
1. Slumdog Millionaire
2. The Young Victoria
3. Girl, Interrupted
4. 21
5. Stand By Me
6. Law Abiding Citizen
7. Catch me if you can
8. Apollo 13

Romantic Comedies:

1. She's All That
2. Picture Perfect
3. Kate & Leopold
4. When Harry Met Sally
5. Leap Year
6. Serious Moonlight
7. You've Got Mail
8. French Kiss
9. Easy A
10. Nick and Norah's Infinite Play list
11. You Again
12. Mean Girls
13. Valentine's Day
14. Definitely, Maybe
15. The Proposal
16. Don't Tell Mom the Babysitters Dead
17. Adventures in Babysitting
18. The Hot Chick
19. John Tucker Must Die
20. New York Minute
21. Chasing Liberty
22. Notting Hill
23. What a Girl Wants
24. Confessions of a Shopaholic
25. First Daughter
26. Life as We Know It
27. Bridget Jone's Diary
28. Morning Glory
29. Win a Date with Tad Hamilton
30. When in Rome
31. Heartbreakers
32. Beauty and the Briefcase
33. Revenge of the Bridemaids
34. The Prince and Me
35. Did you Hear About the Morgans
36. Miss Congeniality
37. Sixteen Candles
38. Summer Catch
39. Whatever it Takes
40. Drive me Crazy
41. Bring it on
42. Can't Buy me love
43. She's Out of My League
44. Sex and the City
45. The Bounty Hunter
46. New in Town-kind of a cute movie
47. With Six you get eggroll
48. The Perfect Man
49. The Lizzie Mcgurie movie-if you were a fan of the show you will like it
50. Duplex
51. Over Her Dead Body
52. My Fake Fiancé
53. Maid in Manhattan
54. 50 First Dates
55. The House Bunny
56. On The Line
57. I Could Never Be Your Woman-it isn't that great but you will like it if you are a Paul Rudd fan
58. Uptown Girls
59. Little Black Book
60. Just My Luck
61. Love Wrecked
62. The Wedding Planner
63. 13 Going on 30
64. Secret Admirer
65. Along Came Polly
66. My Big Fat Greek Wedding
67. Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood
68. Bride Wars-some might like it
Source(s):
72. Clueless
73. Legally Blonde
74. How To Lose a Guy in 10 Days
75. The Women
76. Killers
77. Knight and Day

Romantic Dramas:

1. A Walk To Remember
2. About Last Night
3. Letters to Juliet
4. For Keeps
5. Charlie St. Cloud
6. Save the Last Dance
7. Riding in Cars with Boys
8. Lucas
9. The Last Song
10. Pretty in Pink
11. Sleepless in Seattle
12. Here on Earth
13. Dear John (I didn’t really like this movie but some might)
14. Remember Me (I didn’t really like this movie but some might)
15. Love Happens-if you are a Jennifer Aniston fan you will probably like it
16.The Notebook

Movies with Romance but not really a traditional romantic comedy/drama:

1. Groundhog Day
2. Mamma Mia
3. Sugar and Spice-cheer leading movie
4. Jawbreaker-Rated R high school black comedy
5. Election-Rated R high school black comedy
6. Mermaids
7. About A Boy
8. Adventureland
9. Flipped
 

It's been a long time

Wow 

Didn't realize last post is almost before I leave to Australia 

Mm 

Now I can give it a bit of thought then 

I think I still like New York better 

Canberra is wayyyyyy small a city . Nothing but study over there. You can definently study a lot but no life at all

I miss my nyc 

I dream again...

I cry like a hell today... then fall asleep.. I dream again...

In my dream......

There is a weird lady who doesn't speak any English at all, who sounds like speak russian or I am not sure what it is..

She insist to attend our lecture.. everyone feel she is weird and ignore her.

I step out and ask her that how come you want to attend our lecture since you do not speak any English. In addition, if you would like to attend the course, it is better to let the lecture speaker know it in advance. So I help her out to wait till the speaker arrive then tell the professor that his lady want to attend her lecture but she does not speak much English.

The professor give me the look that feels like.. I know she is weird from other professor . And give me the look to just ignore her...

I am a traveler...

Where is home... no one knows....
New York? Canberra? Taipei? This time.. I decide to let the wind decide.... I am sailboat, am I....

I close my eyes... and I see a better day.....

Justin Bieber - Pray

no matter what kind of negative feeling come in... just dump it.. and refresh myself :) tomorrow is a better day again :) just pray :)
I believe.... I can fly :)

媽咪 我愛你～～

因為你的愛～～ 所以我才能當個baby~~~
我會努力把我的快樂找回來～～～

Justin Bieber - U Smile

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r2ozuCXpVJY

I really miss the simple love......

Justin Bieber - Never Let You Go

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ExWsVFJlFo

never feel this painful before.... love is so painful..... Can I never have it again....

Justin Bieber - Baby ft. Ludacris

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kffacxfA7G4

i pray.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o9tJW9MDs2M&feature=fvsr

I have a dream...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sxAxdeO6YQU

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness still another mile
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream

It's always beautiful to have a dream.... I still have a dream in my heart now... It's not aggressive, not passion as the last one... but I still want to step out... I don't want to just hide myself forever after one fail and one hurt... There are still angels exist in the world... I believe....

It's painful to grow up, to be independent, to be strong..... but... sooner or later.. we will all be there...

I want to be independent :) I want to sing whenever I want to sing.. I want to share my voice with friends.. I want to share all the joy with friends :) I want to be alive again... This time... I am gonna independent...

have you....

When you were a kid, have you dream about one day... when you grow up.. you will meet a man who you love him so much and he love you back the same way...
And you two just fall in love and get marry and have a baby and live together forever happily ever after...

But suddenly.. one day... the whole dream is gone... You realize that the fairy tale never really exist.. Life is crucial and not as beautiful as you dreamed about... What would you do?

All the dreams are gone and never exist, what would you do?

You lose the ability to dream, to hope, to wish, to be happy; what would you do with the future?

I wish

.... wish we can spend holiday together...

wish can talk to you for a while

wish can not to cry...

the hardest thing to say goodbye...

外婆~我回台灣了～這是第一個在台灣的過年 沒有你在身邊
這才知道 我離開了多久～ I miss you and I love you.
You are still the most beautiful women in this world for me. and forever....
對不起 我的任性 我的不成熟 好想再給你一個擁抱 躺在你懷裡 ～那一種熟悉的味道 我還記得 永遠也不會忘記 我還記得外婆家長甚麼樣子～ 雖然沒有那個地方給我去走走了～ 我還記得～回外婆家的路～ 回憶是不會被改建的～
雖然每次想到你 還是會哭 ～ 但是我還是讓自己哭～因為我不想停止想你～ 因為我好怕忘記你～
剛到紐約的前三個月 我每天都會夢到你 你會生氣嗎～ 我有長大了～ 外婆我真的好愛你～
外婆 對不起～～
我回來了
我記得你給我的最後一句話“小帆 你真的要出國阿 ？ 我說 對啊。你說 外婆可能等不到你回來了“
我這輩子沒有後悔過 ～ 可是沒有看到你最後一面 是我這輩子唯一的後悔
I dont want to move on.. Some things in this world can always let it go. but not you. I dont want to let you go.. I miss you... I want to hug you...
I havent cry like this for a long long long time.. I wish you were here shared my happiness. I got the top 1 school.
God, its painful...

This is for my people’s
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
(No, no, no)
Momma’s, daddy’s
Sister’s, brother’s
Friends, and cousins
This is for my people’s
Who lost
Their grandmothers
Lift your head to
The the sky
Cause we will never
Say bye

As a child
There were them times
I didn’t get it
But you kept me in line
I didn’t know
Why you didn’t show up
Sometimes
On Sunday mornings
And I missed you
But I’m glad we talked through
All grown folk things
Seperation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show it
Caused you loved me
And obviously
There’s so much more to say
If you were
With me today
Face to face

I never knew
I can hurt like this
And everyday
Life rolls on
I wish I can talk to you
For a while
Miss you but
Not to cry
As time goes bye

And It’s true
You reached
A better place
Still I’d give
The world
To see your face
and right here
Next to you
Now the hardest thing
To do is say
Bye, bye-bye
Bye-bye
Bye-bye, bye-bye, bye-bye
Bye-bye, bye-bye, bye-bye
Bye-bye, bye-bye, bye-bye

And you never
Got a chance to see
How good I’ve done
And you never
Got to see me
Back at number one
I wish that you was here
To celebrate together
I wish that we can spend
The holidays together
I remember when you use
To tuck me in at night
Or the teddy bear u give me
That I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You make it through whatever
It’s so hard to except
The fact you gone forever

I never knew
I can hurt like this
And everyday
Life rolls on
I wish I can talk to you
For a while
Miss you but
Not to cry
As time goes by

And It’s true
You reached
A better place
And I’d still give
The world
Is in your face
and be right here
Next to you
Now the hardest thing
To do is say
Bye, bye-bye
Bye-bye
Bye-bye, bye-bye, bye-bye
Bye-bye, bye-bye, bye-bye
Bye-bye, bye-bye, bye-bye

This is for my people’s
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man, or your lady
Put you hand way up high
You will never say bye
(No, no, no)
Momma’s, daddy’s
Sister’s, brother’s
Friends, and cousins
This is for my people’s
Who lost their
Grandmother’s
Lift your head
To the sky
Cause we will never
Say bye

I never knew
I can hurt like this
(I never knew it)
And everyday
(Everyday I wish that I)
Life goes on like this
(I wish, I wish)
I wish I can talk to you
For a while
(I wish)
Miss you but
Not to cry
(I wish)
As time goes by
(As time goes bye)

And It’s true that you’ve
Reached a better place
Still I’d give the world
To see your face
And me right here
Next to you
And the hardest thing
To do is say
Bye-bye
It’s hard to say
Bye, bye, bye, bye, bye
So come on
Somebody sing it with me
Wave your hands up high

Cause this is
For my peoples that
Just lost somebody
This is for everybody
Just lift your head
To the sky
Cause we will never
Say bye-bye

Nervous, exciting, depress

Heard friends mention that there will be very few Taiwanese in the place where I am going to.
Kinda upset
A new place, new friends, and a new life there.
I really miss New York. I dont know why... I shouldnt miss there. I've been suffer so many things there. Some happiness, some sadness. It's a cold city but also an enthusiastic city.
I think, I am just too used to everything in the city. Thats why I miss there.
Maybe I should give myself more time. Always more time ... then I will be fine again.

Should I just say goodbye to it or put it on hold. The feeling to the city..

Taipei, Canberra, New York.
Who am I? Where I belong to?
I know... I shouldnt think too much. Sometimes its your life tells you where you belong. Nothing we can really control it, isn't it?

Its beautiful weather today. Maybe its time to put myself somewhere else, except a big city.
I am comming Canberra... and see you Taipei and New York. I will be back after I recover.

Sherry baby's new look

Sherry baby's new look
A new year, a new start
I wish myself that everything will be better in the future.
And wish all my friends, you will be all good luck out there in the world.
And, dad mom bro, I love you.

Please listen to this song when you look at my new look.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1pg0mQHYc-0
Feel like wanna go to the beach now :)