Sunday, January 31, 2010


外婆~我回台灣了~這是第一個在台灣的過年 沒有你在身邊
這才知道 我離開了多久~ I miss you and I love you.
You are still the most beautiful women in this world for me. and forever....
對不起 我的任性 我的不成熟 好想再給你一個擁抱 躺在你懷裡 ~那一種熟悉的味道 我還記得 永遠也不會忘記 我還記得外婆家長甚麼樣子~ 雖然沒有那個地方給我去走走了~ 我還記得~回外婆家的路~ 回憶是不會被改建的~
雖然每次想到你 還是會哭 ~ 但是我還是讓自己哭~因為我不想停止想你~ 因為我好怕忘記你~
剛到紐約的前三個月 我每天都會夢到你 你會生氣嗎~ 我有長大了~ 外婆我真的好愛你~
外婆 對不起~~
我回來了
我記得你給我的最後一句話“小帆 你真的要出國阿 ? 我說 對啊。你說 外婆可能等不到你回來了“
我這輩子沒有後悔過 ~ 可是沒有看到你最後一面 是我這輩子唯一的後悔
I dont want to move on.. Some things in this world can always let it go. but not you. I dont want to let you go.. I miss you... I want to hug you...
I havent cry like this for a long long long time.. I wish you were here shared my happiness. I got the top 1 school.
God, its painful...




This is for my people’s
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
(No, no, no)
Momma’s, daddy’s
Sister’s, brother’s
Friends, and cousins
This is for my people’s
Who lost
Their grandmothers
Lift your head to
The the sky
Cause we will never
Say bye

As a child
There were them times
I didn’t get it
But you kept me in line
I didn’t know
Why you didn’t show up
Sometimes
On Sunday mornings
And I missed you
But I’m glad we talked through
All grown folk things
Seperation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show it
Caused you loved me
And obviously
There’s so much more to say
If you were
With me today
Face to face

I never knew
I can hurt like this
And everyday
Life rolls on
I wish I can talk to you
For a while
Miss you but
Not to cry
As time goes bye

And It’s true
You reached
A better place
Still I’d give
The world
To see your face
and right here
Next to you
Now the hardest thing
To do is say
Bye, bye-bye
Bye-bye
Bye-bye, bye-bye, bye-bye
Bye-bye, bye-bye, bye-bye
Bye-bye, bye-bye, bye-bye

And you never
Got a chance to see
How good I’ve done
And you never
Got to see me
Back at number one
I wish that you was here
To celebrate together
I wish that we can spend
The holidays together
I remember when you use
To tuck me in at night
Or the teddy bear u give me
That I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You make it through whatever
It’s so hard to except
The fact you gone forever

I never knew
I can hurt like this
And everyday
Life rolls on
I wish I can talk to you
For a while
Miss you but
Not to cry
As time goes by

And It’s true
You reached
A better place
And I’d still give
The world
Is in your face
and be right here
Next to you
Now the hardest thing
To do is say
Bye, bye-bye
Bye-bye
Bye-bye, bye-bye, bye-bye
Bye-bye, bye-bye, bye-bye
Bye-bye, bye-bye, bye-bye

This is for my people’s
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man, or your lady
Put you hand way up high
You will never say bye
(No, no, no)
Momma’s, daddy’s
Sister’s, brother’s
Friends, and cousins
This is for my people’s
Who lost their
Grandmother’s
Lift your head
To the sky
Cause we will never
Say bye

I never knew
I can hurt like this
(I never knew it)
And everyday
(Everyday I wish that I)
Life goes on like this
(I wish, I wish)
I wish I can talk to you
For a while
(I wish)
Miss you but
Not to cry
(I wish)
As time goes by
(As time goes bye)

And It’s true that you’ve
Reached a better place
Still I’d give the world
To see your face
And me right here
Next to you
And the hardest thing
To do is say
Bye-bye
It’s hard to say
Bye, bye, bye, bye, bye
So come on
Somebody sing it with me
Wave your hands up high

Cause this is
For my peoples that
Just lost somebody
This is for everybody
Just lift your head
To the sky
Cause we will never
Say bye-bye


Sunday, January 17, 2010

Nervous, exciting, depress

Heard friends mention that there will be very few Taiwanese in the place where I am going to.
Kinda upset
A new place, new friends, and a new life there.
I really miss New York. I dont know why... I shouldnt miss there. I've been suffer so many things there. Some happiness, some sadness. It's a cold city but also an enthusiastic city.
I think, I am just too used to everything in the city. Thats why I miss there.
Maybe I should give myself more time. Always more time ... then I will be fine again.

Should I just say goodbye to it or put it on hold. The feeling to the city..

Taipei, Canberra, New York.
Who am I? Where I belong to?
I know... I shouldnt think too much. Sometimes its your life tells you where you belong. Nothing we can really control it, isn't it?

Its beautiful weather today. Maybe its time to put myself somewhere else, except a big city.
I am comming Canberra... and see you Taipei and New York. I will be back after I recover.